I will be returning. I never meant to neglect this blog for so long. Life just gets hectic and there’s so much going on right now. I will try to sum it up briefly…
Work: I quit my job because of stress and frequent emotional breakdowns. I don’t want t admit it, but I don’t think I’m cut out for monotonous bullshit where I am underpaid and overworked. I did not feel appreciated at all at my job as a waitress and the area I currently live in was filled with too many assholes that I couldn’t handle.
School: Because I couldn’t find another job, I started back at school. Yes, I wanted to continue my education anyway, but fact of the matter is I can pay my bills as a student with grants and loans. It’s kind of a win/win for me, so I just did it. I’m in an education program currently and the goal is to become certified to teach middle school science.
Health: I’m not ready to tell you the rather big news yet as there may be some complications, but I am working on my health. Emotionally I’m worn out. I’m not very good at being a grown up, I suppose, so I’m back on antidepressants. I’m just on a low 25mg of Zoloft for now and my mood seems to be improving. Doing things other than sleep and cry is nice, but I’ve been on Zoloft before and just like before I am content sitting around doing nothing but stare at the walls. I still need to find actual motivation, but I guess that’s something I need to work on.
So there you have it. I’m alive, not dead. And I really would love to get back into blogging. So sorry I’ve slacked. I’d appreciate some kind of reassurance that I wasn’t forgotten about compeltely. How are you? How’s the blogging world?